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Tuesday, November 11, 2008

wonderful weekend

We had a very special weekend. Terry and I were sealed in the LDS Temple on Saturday. It was a beautiful day. Both our families and a lot of friends were there. We both felt so lucky to have so much love around us. We feel so blessed we were able to go thru the temple and recieve the great promises that we did.
We finished all our fertility testing and had our final consultation to determine what our next move would be. The doctor informed us that our only option would be invitro. Terry and I both decided before we even started all of this that invitro is not for us. There are so many risks involved and it takes a toll on everything and everyone. It was easy to say this when we thought that it would not be our only option then when it was placed before us both our hearts sunk. We both still very strongly that it is not a good option for us but it is so much more difficult to think about now. My heart literally aches at the thought of not having a child. I know I will be a mother the hardest part right now is just waiting for the child that is supposed to be with us. We cannot begin an adoption process until we have been married for 2 years. That is through an agency at least. If we do it privately then it can be whenever but the problem there is finding a mother who is giving up her child not using an agency. We both want to start to our family so badly and patience is so hard especially with something like this. I know there is a bigger plan than we can even comprehend but that does not solve the heartache of today.
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4 comments:

Marcus n McKenzie said...

I hope everything works out good! Good luck deciding. That's a tough decision.

Jenna Lee said...

I love you guys and it was great at the temple!!! Hope everthing works out!!! That would be a tuff decision to make!!!
We Love you

Julz said...

Congrats on going through the Temple! That is so exciting! And I'm so sorry about how you are feeling right now. I have a few friends who are going through the same feelings. You really should check out my friend Kim's blog- http://kimsueellen.blogspot.com/ she has a great support group. Good luck with everything and our prayers are with you!

David & Vanessa said...

What a beautiful blessing it is to be sealed for all time and eternity in the Temple. I'm so happy for you Bethany. You deserve all the blessings that come with a temple sealing! I'm really sorry about the heartache that must accompany your current situation. But, know that Heavenly Father has a plan, and would never deprive you of experiencing the joys that come with having children. You are always in my prayers. And everything will come in it's time and season, and it will make that season all the most magnificent and special and colorful!