I love fall

Sometimes when you are very lucky the sun does something magical and makes every photographer want time to stop. Last night was one of those times. The colors were breath taking, I didn't want to stop shooting and I definetly did not want the sun to go down.

wonderful weekend

We had a very special weekend. Terry and I were sealed in the LDS Temple on Saturday. It was a beautiful day. Both our families and a lot of friends were there. We both felt so lucky to have so much love around us. We feel so blessed we were able to go thru the temple and recieve the great promises that we did.
We finished all our fertility testing and had our final consultation to determine what our next move would be. The doctor informed us that our only option would be invitro. Terry and I both decided before we even started all of this that invitro is not for us. There are so many risks involved and it takes a toll on everything and everyone. It was easy to say this when we thought that it would not be our only option then when it was placed before us both our hearts sunk. We both still very strongly that it is not a good option for us but it is so much more difficult to think about now. My heart literally aches at the thought of not having a child. I know I will be a mother the hardest part right now is just waiting for the child that is supposed to be with us. We cannot begin an adoption process until we have been married for 2 years. That is through an agency at least. If we do it privately then it can be whenever but the problem there is finding a mother who is giving up her child not using an agency. We both want to start to our family so badly and patience is so hard especially with something like this. I know there is a bigger plan than we can even comprehend but that does not solve the heartache of today.
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I've been tagged

Tagged by Randi


8 shows I like to watch

1.prison break(yay the bad guy is dead)
2.pushing daisys
3.How I met your mother
4.Fringe
5.Greys Anatomy
6.Private Practice
7.Ellen
8.The Office

8 Restaurants I like to eat at

1.Pizza Factory (YUM)
2.Cafe Rio
3.Olive Garden
4.AppleBee's
5.Macayo's
6.Taco Time
7.Panera
8.

8 Things that happened today

1.got out of bed
2.started laundry
3.played wii fit
4.did some more laundry
5.took a shower
6.ate breakfast
7.printed off coloring pages for kids I watch
8.wrote this

8 Things I'm looking forward to


1.getting sealed in the temple this Saturday
2.going to the dr to get all test results today
3.starting a family
4.pumpkin pie for thanksgiving
5.my sister having her baby in Jan
6."my favorite things" weekend with sisters
7.going on drives with Terry
8.for the election to be over

8 things on my wish list

1.To be able to get pregnant
2.not having to take thyroid medicine anymore
3.live closer to my family but still live close to Terrys
4 have more hours in the day
5.have the feeling of Christmas all year long
6.economy to pick up
7.start a family
8.start a family


8 people I'm tagging

1.Liz
2.Mckenzie
3.Jenn
4.Julie C.
5. thats all i can think of right now its still early

Halloween weekend

We had such a fun weekend. The pictures uploaded backwards so I will retell it starting with Halloween night. These are my darling nephews so clever and cute. My sister is in the middle and my brother in law is Gene simmons the other guy is their partner at their company. They did such an amazing job with their makeup and wigs. They were hilarious

I don't know how I got him to do it but we were the frankenstein couple it was so much fun. The hour teasing my hour and the hour getting it our were not so much fun!!!!

My sister is remodeling her house so we had a party there and she set up her soon to be work out room as a bowling alley. We used pumpkins as the balls it was so much fun

Terry struck out every time until the pumpkins exploded.

Tis the season to think about Gingerbread boys, carols and of course Christmas cards. Here a few cards I have designed for this year. Please let me know soon if you want to set up a photo shoot for your Christmas cards.

what to do

So as many of you may already know Terry and I have run into some major fertility problems. My body for just some reason cannot get pregnant instead I grow massive cysts that are extremely painful. We met with a fertility doctor this week and we are starting the testing to see what are options are. We have both decided that Invitro is not for us. This was not an easy decision by any means. It feels like a great loss to me if I cannot carry a child, but the what ifs about invitro scare us both way too much. I really never thought I would ever be faced with this but we are and Terry is a rock he is the one telling me whatever will be, will be and I know that to be true but that doesn't make the sorrows of today any easier. We talked with a couple last night who have adopted 2 children. They were very insightful and excited to share their story. We are going to start that process and see where it takes us. This too was not an easy decision. I have 4 cousins who have been adopted and they are all amazing miracles and I know with all of my heart they are meant to be exactly where they are. They are as much part of the family as the next. I know there is a plan for all of us and it is much bigger and more in depth than we could ever comprehend. I know that nothing is by mistake that everything is a lesson and a stepping stone to making a good life. I also know there will be nothing given to us that we cannot handle that brings me great comfort. We are scared but very excited for what lies ahead of us. We are surrounded by great supports and the knowledge that we will make it thru this. Life is full of storms, it is up to us if we look for the rainbows.

weekend fun

so this past weekend we didn't really have much planned which is very rare for us. We made plans with our cousins in st. george we first had some shopping to do in st george we were looking for halloween costumes just wait for the pictures they are priceless. then we met up with them at cafe rio(terrys all time fav place) after eating we headed back to their place to play some games we started "scene it" tv but it was too hard the shows were way to old for us youngins so we sent the boys to buy a new version and what did they come back with? an even harder game, trivial pursuit. I ended up winning with a little cheating but still I won then we rocked out with rock band go jenn on the drums she knows how to bang them for sure. i was mostly the singer and terry on the guitar and the one time i was on guitar i was kicked off the stage better stick with the vocals. it was such a fun night thanks guys.